if someone can’t wake up early to watch you race, then they don’t deserve you
No Matter What II Sweat Everyday
or listen to your body. If you feel pain, not soreness, but actual pain, please, don’t do the workout.
CAUSE HERE I WAS SWEATING REGARDLESS EVERYDAY AND NOW I CAN BARELY MOVE AND HAVE TO GO GET X-RAYS AND AN MRI AND I AM FUCKING SCARED. ALL I WANT TO DO IS RUN MARATHONS AND NOW I FUCKING CANT FOR THE TIME BEING AND I CANNOT EXPLAIN HOW ANGRY I AM WITH MYSELF FOR IGNORING THE PAIN AND RUNNING THROUGH IT
so i went to bed last night with little to no pain, woke up and it was a little stiff.
I can definitely feel it healing a bit. So instead of a long walk today, I went on a 17.65 mile bike ride in 1:12 minutes. It was nice to feel my heart working hard again and feeling like I was actually getting to work out a bit.
I at least feel like I won’t be losing as much fitness this way, and plus side I won’t be putting as much pressure on my joints- yippee!
but i still cannot wait to run.
and 16 mile bike ride a day later, i could barely walk this morning. finally scheduled x-rays for monday, but i am slowly dying here. i am sure of it.
goodbye cruel world. goodbye yummy vegetables. goodbye cereal, my elixir. goodbye bread.
it’s been real.
I keep switching from “wow I need to restrict and become super skinny and dainty” to “I need to eat clean and exercise more and be really fit” to “I can eat whatever the fuck I want, I’m supposed to be…